Anyway, that's not the worst. I think today's the worst day... For the whole day, nothing seems to have gone right. Whatever that could have gone wrong, went wrong... Right from the very time I reached office area, the stall selling kuehs and newspapers was not opened.. Then when I to to office and saw someone I din want to see (this person almost spoilt my whole day), on top of it, a whole chunk of email threads on an issue that have been on going for 2 weeks, but only today, we're told we've done things wrongly. The last email thread we saw, I tot we already had everthing sorted out, but in fact no, nothing was done and everyone said what they thought and no one else was updated and hence lots of descrepanices. Everything was back to square 1 after so many emails coz of communication breakdowns.I was tasked to clear up the mess by speaking to 2 parties who are apparently not talking and had to be the bridge. Finally, everything was sorted out during lunch time. But sigh... shitty work
Lunch did not go well at all.. not only I din get to eat well.... I even felt sick in the stomach. Hah... so nice... In the end, I think dun really have lunch time, as I was still working on my tickets and queues and email thru lunch while eating... Other than that, different other issues cropped up today too and the SG IT mgr, whom I'm not reporting to, came into the helpdesk room to speak so many times with me... Kaoz....
Then at knocking off time, I tot everything shld b pretty ok. But no!! Things went as wrong as they can be, from msn message to sms to call, I got shot on whatever that's possible. I feel those are not my fault, but well, mayb they really are!!!! All my fault...... It's not I'm not natural, all along that's me. Even when sometimes I see the boss or some other colleagues at the bus stop, I dun even look at him, not to mention talk to him or smile.... teach me, how to b natural? I'm a super un-natural person and sorry for ruining your weekend.
On my way back, I felt so stressed and sad, I think I cried on the train while going to the gym. that auntie standing near me, might have seen my red nose and teary eyes... I really needed to vent out a bit... Can no longer control my emotions after a long day with heavy workload and shit, plus no consolation... I think I broke down. Can no longer feel.... While walking from cck to the gym, I almost got knocked down by a lorry... There was no vehicle when I was crossing, but the lorry suddenly appeared and just horned. I can't imagine what I'd be like now if I din pause where I was when I heard the loud long horn. How worst can things get? I dunno, really dunno....
I need some enlightenment and some consolation.... :(
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